You Can't HANDLE The Truth!

Sometimes, I listen to the radio at work and hear the worst shit excuses for music and I want to SCREAM! Who's with me here! I mean, COME ON!! "My Black and Yella" talking about how rich Im gonna be and everyones gonna think I'm 'Fly' and I'm gonna cruise around in my sexy diamond crusted car. WHAT?! I'm Sorry.... wait... or, "There's a place downtown where the freaks all hang around, its a hole in the wall its a dirty free for all.." Wait... and people are going there? What is it an orgy party? Are you singing a song about an orgy party? and little kids are singing this? They TOTALLY do! "Apple Bottom Jeans. Boots with the Fur." Since when did we need fur on our boots? So I shave my legs cause hair is gross, and then put on fur boots cause they're hott?! lol
I can appreciate the value of all styles of music. I am not a huge fan of a ton of Rap, but I definately know I couldn't spit that shit out at the drop of a hat like some of these guys. And the beats are fantastic when they're not stolen lol. Now..... Katy Perry? Who the hell is she and why is she wearing blue hair? Why do I care about her wedding in India to an English guy? Is this the music business now? Is this what you have to be? Katy Perry, Ke$ha (or Ke-dollarsign-ha as I like to say), Justin Beiber, T.I....that's Not a NAME! Why do I suddenly feel like I have to loose 50lbs, draw something obscure on my face, and dance around in tights? Does anyone care about music anymore?!
Or. Has it always been this way but with lesser means and I've just glamorized it all my life. There are so many good songs out there but so few REALLY stand the test of time. THAT is a true musician. These other shit eaters are just cashing a paycheck. Im sorry. I know a LOT of people love it and again, I can appreciate the value of parts of them, (More to keep myself from going nutso on some dumb bimbo singing something about her wearing shorts and a bikini on top) but I doubt that someday someone will say "Oh MAN! 'Unchained Melody', 'The Wall','Thriller', Crazy', and 'Teenage Dream' are some of the best songs ever!"
I want to go on the record here. I have loved music all my life. I have never been known for being a 'sexy woman', a 'crazy peformer', a 'pyrotechnic Extravaganza artist' but when I hit that high note, people turn. I have no need for this skimpy clothing to cause a wave, paint my face, act all wierd, shoot my boyfriend's ear off, get caught with a heroine needle in my arm, oops I failed another drug test attention whoring. If thats what it takes to be a musician, something has gone horribly awry. I know there are far more talented people than me out there, but I know we have the balls to go after this. We have been rejected for shows before, we have been declined from booking even. This means nothing. I picked up my guitar tonight after a stint away due to being sick and I felt that spark and I knew again. We are good. We get better all the time and we are different. We also have a long way to go. Everytime I want to be all BOO HOO, I think, 'Just because the bullshit is all packed in pretty packages and sold through the devil on MTV, doesn't mean we can't be something real. When I met Ty I told him, 'I will do this with or without you' and he said 'Ok. I'm in' It like was our verbal contract. :)
So, Next time you see us on stage, It will be the best show we have ever done. And then the NEXT time you see us again, It will be the best show we've ever done. And THEN, the NEXT time you see us, it will be THE BEST SHOW, we've EVER done, and so on. My point. Whether you like us or not. Whether we are your 'style of music' or not, whether I wear hot pants and Ty has an open fronted leotard or not, we are true musicians and damn proud of it. Someday, when we are touring and playing full time, we will build lasting relationships with the people we meet. We will have staying power because no matter how cool or sexy you are to a 13 year old for sliding around on the floor covered in naked men, she has nothing in common with you and she will remember people who were real to her. I've never heard anyone say anything like 'I STILL idolize Suzy Pepper, that CRAZY acrobatic singer from the 60's' (this is a made up person) Its the classics. The people who either sold their soul and made it work for them, or remained human....ish. Or died young and tragically. I'd prefer not the latter. ANYWHO.
I just wanted to tell you all how I feel about the music business. If I play my guitar and sing, then those who want to hear it will find me if I haven't found them first. But you have to keep playing no matter what cause the #1 cause of failure is giving up.